One of those eye opening moments was when I was doing an online affirmation. When I started the affirmation, it told me to have my phone ready and to go to the camera. I really didn't know what that meant or what I was in for.
Let's talk about affirmations for a minute. I have been learning and studying the affects of positive language and mindset on the brain and on your life. It is really incredible how it all works and the benefits of having a positive attitude.
We have already talked about the benefits of starting your day with writing in a gratitude journal. I will talk more about that in another post and the amazing health benefits that come through gratitude and meditation. Yikes. I have so much I want to share with you. Look squirrel.
Back to those affirmations and the wonderful woman that wanted me to have my camera ready. It was an entire affirmation about loving yourself. I went through the paces, listened to all the things she said and even said the mantras along with her. I don't think my heart was in it. At the end? She said turn your camera on and flip it towards yourself. Her instructions:
Look yourself in the eye and say, 'I Am Worthy Of Love'.
I COULDN'T DO IT. I could not tell myself I was worthy of love. What an eye opening experience. I cried. I seriously cried. Clearly something is going on with me right? Everyone is worthy of love. I did a lot of praying, a lot of reading and meditating. Of course, my feelings became true when that wonderful person said about me, "Did You See How Fat She Is?". You can read about those fateful words HERE. I told my family about this and my daughter gave me this...
This week as I started the next phase of my wellness journey, I am not focusing just on getting rid of some of the extra fat I am carrying on my God given body. I am also focusing on my spiritual and mental wellness. I believe one of the reasons I have not been able to lose the weight and keep it off is because I didn't think I was worthy of love.
I am going to say that again. This is important!
ONE OF THE REASONS I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO LOSE THE WEIGHT AND KEEP IT OFF IS BECAUSE I DIDN'T THINK I WAS WORTHY OF LOVE.
My current affirmation? I AM WORTHY OF LOVE, I AM STRONG AND LEAD AN ABUNDANT LIFE.
This morning when I did my oil regimen and said my affirmation out loud multiple times, I was able to look at myself in the mirror and without thinking about it.... I SMILED. It was not forced. It just happened. I smiled at myself when I said I Am Worthy Of Love.I get the chills just typing this. Remember three months ago, I could not even say it! Literally my throat closed up and I could not make myself say the words. It was the strangest thing to experience.
I know this is a huge win for me on my journey. I have a small group where I have done some guided meditations with them on Facebook. I am going to start that group up again. If you want an invite, let me know!
Have you had any moments like this? AHA moments? Send me a message or comment here! I WANT TO HEAR FROM YOU!
Cleanse Update
No night sweats at all last night! Energy levels seem to be improving. Hunger pains have minimized. Scale has moved quite a bit, but I am not focusing on the scale. I know the first bits of weight loss will be primarily water weight.
Exercise Update
We did go to the gym yesterday afternoon and I did 55 minutes on the recumbent bike. After we got home, Elsie asked if I wanted to go on a bike ride. Time with teen children is precious so I said yes. We went for an hour ride. I may regret that later. But I am moving and burning calories.
#IAMWORTHY
#THISISMYJOURNEY
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